Mi Vida

I thought it was time for you to meet the most important person in my life- my sweet Jacob :) He is my reason for living! He is the smartest, most outgoing, & enthusiastic boy I know. He is constantly challenging & teaching me to be a better Mom. Although he has blonde hair & blue eyes (which he clearly got from his Daddy!) & I'm sure most people don't think he belongs to me, I am SO proud to be his Mama :) As he grows & begins to express himself more verbally, I look forward to sharing the funny & entertaining things that he will say to me!
Cheers,
{jae.}

Forgiveness

Forgiveness is not about freeing the person who has wronged against you...it's about freeing yourself from the burden & pain of what happened. Although the circumstances between this father & son are far more extreme in comparison to the situations I have been journeying to forgive, the results are quite similar. I am grateful for the convictions I face daily to maintain my good intentions in life & that I have the ability to be set free from the burden I feel.
[Matthew 11:28]
Cheers,
{jae.}

Day Four

Hello!

Today I had to photograph something green. Let me just say that I definitely developed a very high respect for successful photographers! Taking a great photo is not as easy as looking through the lens & pressing a button. I didn’t think that this 30 day challenge would be that much of a challenge :P Hope you enjoy my green photo!

Cheers,

{jae.}

Day Four-Something Green

Day Two & Three

Alright friends,

So it turns out a 30 day Photography Challenge was more difficult than I thought! Today’s challenge was clouds: I knew this was going to be difficult because I live in Edmonton & because it’s the middle of winter! Blech :( As I was running some errands, I was completely shocked when I saw the sky painted with the most texturized clouds. Luckily I had my camera on me :) buuut then I realized my camera was dead! So this photo was taken with my phone so it does not do it justice but I had to share it because I still think it’s so pretty! It’s already midnight & although I don’t have school tomorrow-I have my little man with me so I gotta hit the hay J

Enjoy the photos!!

Cheers, 

{jae.}

Day Two-Something I wore

Day Three-Clouds

30 Day Photography Challenge

Afternoon folks!
Last night, as I was sitting in my warm cozy bed at one in the morning browsing Pinterest :D, I stumbled across this pin about a 30 day photography challenge! Funny thing was that I had just been talking to my friend (who is a photographer) a couple days prior about how I wanted to get into photography & BAM; as the challenge stared me in the face, I accepted! Yay :) & who better to share my outcomes than a bunch of strangers?! ;)
I hope you enjoy these next 30 days as much as I will.
Cheers,
{jae.}

Day One: Self Portrait.

With you, it’s different

[ a guy & a girl can just be friends, but at one point or another they will fall for each other…maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever ]

I just recently went through a break up. The emotions I felt (& still feel) were so piercing & severe that in moments like those, it feels like everything is a dream & I’m just praying that I will wake up. I have never met anyone I got along with so well, someone I was able to ‘click’ with so well, someone who challenged & fascinated me…someone who sometimes literally felt like they were a part of me. How could it possibly be true…that the relationship that once began with butterflies & innocence & pure bliss has ended in confusion, uncertainty & possibly regret. My mind just races through all the memories…every smile, every laugh, every touch, every word; what does it all mean now? Do I move forward with all those wonderful memories? Can I use those memories to block the severe emotional pain? Or will that pain forever capture the happiness. I keep contemplating over all the conversations- what could I have said or done differently? The ambiguity kills me.

After time spent in meditation I have come to this conclusion: Those who seek the Lord shall not lack any good thing-Psalm 34:10. The Lord needs to intentionally be made number one priority in all situations. Although we as humans are not perfect & in any relationship there will be arguments & difficult times, the Lord needs to be the foundation. I believe that despite the fact that the relationship had no distinct issues that were critical in treating but perhaps rather growing in understanding, what was lacking was the spiritual aspect.

One of the hardest parts of life is deciding whether to walk away or try harder. I don’t want to walk away from something I truly know was existent. However, I do believe that having some time to reflect in prayer & seek guidance can do no harm. I will be anticipating the appropriate time to move on to the next step.

I’ll keep you peeps posted.

Cheers.

{jae.}

pressure riding.

First blog post; I feel like there’s a lot of pressure riding on me to be unique & entertaining. Honestly, the only reason I created this blog is because my hipster friend Emily started one & she really inspired me (haha). I also started it because I’ve been going through a lot of crappy stuff lately & I thought it would be a good way to vent & talk about the good & the bad in my life without always having to pile on someone I know & then be labeled as a Debbie Downer ;). I mean, who knows-you could be reading this right now & we could totally know each other…OR you could be a total stranger that stumbled upon my blog. Either way, I feel that this will be a beneficial, healthy outlet to my emotions. My hope is that this blog will essentially become a public journal; that I will be able to be genuine & transparent with how I am feeling, experiencing & learning. We shall see!

Until next time my fellow bloggers.

Cheers

{jae.}